My Angel is Missing A Halo
by: Tyffeni Brianna N. Cooper
what if you didn't keep me / what if you didn't need me
if I told you I'm hurting would you even believe me
I wanted to be different
I tried to make you proud
but there were some emotions that I could not live without
I'm writing you a letter
I could send you a text
but a letter portrays it better
you let them all go
it was me you chose to save
& I know I should be grateful that I'm standing here today
but you took the life outta me
I was barely a year old
& you left with a man that I really didn't know
I can imagine my screams
I can still feel the tears
from a baby who couldn't comprehend why her mother wasn't here
then she came along / she took me in her arms
she told me she'd protect me / I had done nothing wrong
I was just a baby / my innocence was gone
& you really wonder why our relationship isn't strong
I know that when you left
my cries would never end
I began to think I was your perfect little sin
how could you not retrieve me
I was your flesh & blood
I didn't deserve to be left while you went out & did your drugs.
& then she came along
she was my angel without wings
the only mother I knew until I was sixteen
she told me I was beautiful / she told me I was home
& I prayed to God that she would never leave me alone
I tried so hard to be perfect for her
The perfect little child
& what I lacked in beauty
I channeled through my smile
I smiled during the day
I would cry in my s
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(Check out Part II of the My Angel Is Missing A Halo series. Part III is coming soon.)
