By: SaH Bai
Woke up to the darkness that resides in my room.
Light courts and tans bricks and live people.
The sun sets on the west side of my soul
Where the goodness lies inside.
Beautiful people with.. Beautiful faces.
We congregated on a pier for our one night of freedom.
Didn't participate
Too late, but we all kissed in the sky
Disguised as fireworks.
Back home to the prison they seem to call home.
Breaking free of such convictions in five.. four.. three..
Spent entirely too long hiding behind a pair of shades.
Two..
It's time I'm free.
One…
Who would've thought this
Summer solstice
When you lie inside the darkness it's hard to see
In this record heating
The concrete takes a beating, but
When times are hard
The bleeding is fine to see
As long as it heals one day
The crystals that floats in the air would not
Go on their way
They'll come outside to play with you
Once you find that you are completely you
Reinvent yourself to be completely new
Show them how to win at the game of Life
Never compromise when it's you that hide
On the inside of someone who seems to be
You when you look into the mirror in the morning
Trapped on your bed
Constantly mourning the chances
You've missed out on thinking that opinions can make you
The best around
I've shut them down
& look who I've found
It is me
It's me.
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Lazy summers is the enemy of proactivity
Don’t understand the one's that's feeling me
Cause who am I to be
The one they see themselves hanging out with
Any time of day
I'm just this average kid who suck at games
The dating people play..
Never taking chances either
It's like I am trapped inside the prison and the walls are ether
Either that or I am just a pussy
Really either or
I'm working my self-esteem
So I won't miss a chance no more & now
A lot of people's mad at that
The cabbage patch kids
Wants their old friend that's sadder than a playground
With no kids in it
To be back on bed rest testing how long
Can seed stay dormant
& that was abnormal
& your abs normal but..
I'll take everything you put in offer
Seems so softer when I'm holding it inside the real world
Real skin to feel on
Hella opposition from those who don't fit description
Of my internal prescription for the one I want
& you're the one I want
Is it weird that I compare you to computer font?
Have you seen those fonts?
Beautiful as hell when I put words together
Then, you'll receive my letter
Hopefully you'll feel better bout it
I used to sit in bedroom with my dreams
That I was doubting
Walk into the world
With full lips intent on pouting
All the way to midtown Manhattan
Then, down to the village
In my pictures near the fountains in Atlantic City
I've always hope that you'd come get me,
But I have to get you?
Cause you are suffering too?
From the same thing I've dealt with way back
In my High School?
I was figuring out
Myself and every little detail that I could then point out
Or other people point out
They like to point out your flaws
In hope that you would then fall
& never get up to draw your own line in the sand
That's the thing that they can't deal with
Deal with it cause I am the one to deal with
When it comes to me?
I'm the only one who can hit the note
That resonates with me
I hope these people see..
That I am me and only me
To be anything else is just a downgrade
In the face
Of a person who's so damn great at
Being great at
Being them
