It's 1am here. I was awoken out of my sleep by this nagging feeling that I needed to post this very important blog post.
*****TRIGGER WARNING: CUTTING, SUCIDAL IDEATIONS.*****
I get it. The thrill of it all. The longing to stop the screaming inside your head. The need for immediate a pain reliever. All the emotions sky rocketing through our body and we don't even stop to think about life after death. We don't know for sure what's on the other side. We don't know if death is a cure for the pain, all we can think about is the alternative. So many of us think we don't serve a purpose, but just because you don't see the purpose you serve, doesn't mean you have one. Put down the pills, knife, gun, whatever you were just about to use to end it and call 911. Tell them I want to die. Call your parents. Tweet about it. Send me an email: tearsofarebel@gmail.com Watch how much love comes pouring out from people you never even believed cared. DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY PEOPLE'S LIVES YOU WILL BE ENDING JUST BECAUSE YOU CHOSE TO END YOURS? I'm going to be blunt, and it may not seem very nice, but don't be stupid. Suicide is not temporary. You are gone. FOREVER. There is no undoing it. There is no coming back. Every stage in life is built to prepare you for something great. I more than anyone understand what you are going through. My post 'When It Gets Cold Outside & You've Got Nobody To Love' was a step up from a suicide letter. I disappeared that morning and tried to end my life. I passed out for two hours in the snow. When I finally woke up. I was dizzy, and knew that by some divine intervention, I wasn't dead. I was being forced to live my life. Less than 6 months later, I am free of every negative thought I've had in life. It's been months since I've picked up a blade and cut myself. I AM HAPPY. It feels so good. If I can do it, so can you. Please do not give up. You are not in this alone, we can get through this, together.
I LOVE YOU. Gr, Now I'm going back to sleep because I have to be up at 6am. XO.
